I'm feeling pretty bummed, I'm not even gonna lie. I mean, this summer has been great and Chicago was such an amazing time. I got to hangout with a ton of people and do so really awesome stuff and now I just feel kind of stuck.
So, what am I doing? Eating my moms pasta (guilty comfort food), getting fatter, and listening to sad songs. Because thats what I do at times like these. I mean I'll go months and months of being so happy and than out of no where this depression hits me like a ton of bricks and it makes me hate myself more than I usually do. I wish I was prettier, I wish I was skinnier, I wish I could sing, I wish I had more self confidence. I wish boys would look at me and not be repulsed.
I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore and it scares me more than anything. I just want to hide in my room for the next five years.
I dunno, I hate being like this and I hate being depressed but who knows. I dunno.
-Meranda
you sexy thang! (sexy thang youuu!)
ReplyDelete<3
I think you and I need to have a movie day or something and watch a bunch of silly chick flicks. ;]
ReplyDeleteI understand, though, the same thing happens to me. I'm fine for months and then suddenly everything just overflows and I'm depressed again for a while, and over the same things as you! I wish I was skinner or prettier or more confident or just something other than who and what I am already. The only thing I can say about that is that it is a part of life, everyone feels that way, even the people who seem to have it perfect.
Just know you're not alone =] And you always have crazy people like us to talk to.
And yo; you are gorgeous, don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise!!!
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Aww thanks!
ReplyDelete<3.
We def should do a chick flick day or something like that, it would be pretty awesome. And you know if you need anything Im always here as well.
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