So, I have always been one of those people who has like their whole life planned out by the time they are 12 years old. And now my life is taking a shit. I mean, I have always known what I wanted to do with my life. Its simple. Go to College. Move to New York City. Be a Photographer. The End.
But now Im debating if I am even going back to college in the fall. The way I look at it theres no point, I mean the college Im at now doesnt even offer photography as a major, wtf? So why go back? It makes no sense to me. Even my mom told me to take a year off or change my major. HELLO!!!!? Thats not part of the plan that I created for myself way back when. Aglflfzlkh. If I dont go back to college Im going to work full time in hopes of earning enough money to move to New York next year. Maybe that will work out. Who. Knows.
Sometimes I wish I could go back and redo my whole life over. What would I do differently? I would have stuck with drama and choir and musical theater would have been my major. I would have stuck with playing the violin and guitar. I would have taken piano lessons. And now to me it feels like Ive wasted my life on things I love.
Is this even making sense? No. Its not.
Im just angsty. So much. And I cant even talk to any of my friends here about whats going on because I dont feel comfortable doing so.
This was going to be an awesome blog but it turned into this. Go figure. Im bitter at life. Okaythanxbaiii.
End of ranty/emo/angsty blog.
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I've come to realize that plans don't work out. last fall, I had everything figured out, Christian college for a year, work for a year, go to California to start off my travelling. now I'm graduating a year late, don't care about California, and would rather go to England to live for a while.
ReplyDeleteplans are boring anyways xD
take life as it comes, one step at a time, you'll be all right.
also, go listen to Better Days by The Goo Goo Dolls. my friends Katherine suggested it to me when I was going through a rough time a while ago, and it still makes me feel better.
and Hold On by The Cottars too. excellent feel better song.