Lets Insert Some Angsty Song Lyrics Here....

Okay, so things WERE looking up, now they are looking rather down. So I needed to get a student loan for LCCC for this fall semester well now I found out I can't get that loan because my GPA isn't a 2.0. Which means I either have to find a way to pay for college or not take classes this fall. It's so stressful, my dad told me to pay with it with the money I have but we're going to Chicago and I need money from that. And we already bought the tickets so I can't not go. ;| I mean, don't get me wrong I'm pumped for Chicago and I'm excited I'm going I just wish I could pay for my classes and books somehow.

So now I have to worry about paying to get my car fixed and now the rest of my tuition at LC and books. It's just really stressful and I feel like I'm about to have a breakdown or something. And my PMS isn't helping anything. I just need time away I think.

I dunno.
Blah.

It's been a while.

My computer isnt fixed but if I hook my desk top monitor up to my laptop than I can use is which is pretty cool I guess. So yeah, it's been a while since I updated anything, fail on my part. Haha. Well last week (I think it was last week) a bunch of us went to Put In Bay and that was super awesome! Than yesterday Kail, Steph, Kelly, and I went to the beach, than watched Nick and Norah's at Steph's house, got Hersey's ice cream, and than went back to Stephs house to watch The American President.

This summer has been pretty awesome!

And in a bit we're going to get our tickets for Spring Awakening in Chicago ;D Woo, good times.

Well, this is all for now, I'll write more later.

Ohh man,.

I have no computer and its killing me, right now Im at the library, I had a bunch of errands to do and needed a break so I stopped by here. I got my fall schedule figured out, I have a job which I hate but at least its a job right? And I might be going to Chicago in August! Super exciting.

Well I have to run but yeah. Hopefully my computer will be fixed soon!

I love your light,
Meranda

Watch As I Drown And Wonder Why

Im not going to beat around the bush, I'm going to come right out and say, I'm depressed. Highly depressed. I get those moments where I just get so down and blah blah blah. Yeah. I hate not having a job, it sucks so much. I want a job so I can actually go do things and go places and what not. Also my self confidence, it's at like zero percent. I want to be skinny and pretty. When I'm around my friends I feel like the fat ugly girl and I hate it so much. Extreme dieting sounds really good right about now.

Meranda

i should have been in bed like three hours ago mwhaha but atlas im not. i dont even know why im updating this, i dont have anything to say really. i feel kind of siiiick. and i still need to find one more class for freaking lccc, i just dont know what i want to take. haha. yep. and i need to find a job asap, i might do that tomorrow after i head up to the college.

hmm what else.
oh! i cut and dyed my hair. i got bangs and i look dumb with them. and than my hair was supposed to turn like golden-brown but it looks the exact same color as it did before i dyed it, so that was a fail.
hair!hair!hair!haaaaair.

and i have no cell phone D: my mom is suspending it till i find a job, please someone, let me find a job very VERY soon.

im sleepy and pms-y so im going to bed.

word,
meranda

Ohmygosh an Update

Alright, so blogging time. Yeah its like 3am and Sara is sleeping in my room and guess who is awake and bright eyed and bushy tailed? Oh thats right me! Laaaame. I want to sleep, I just cant, I think I might have insomnia. Who knows.

So yeah this weekend has been pretty rad. My parents are out of town for the weekend and friday night a bunch of people came over and we had a bonfire and we made smores and all that good stuff. And it was super fun. Than today/yesterday/the 4th of july Sara and I went to Crocker Park to see Shoshana Bean sing, she played Elphie in wicked on Broadway and she sung 'Defying Gravity' (i totally took a video of it and it WILL be on youtube tomorrow, I'll link it some time in case you wanna watch it) and while I was in the line at Starbucks I totally meet a Guilty One because I was wearing my Spring Awakening shirt so we fanned boy/girl the show while I was waiting for my Frappiccino. Than after all of that we went to Sara's aunt and uncle's and got some food, than went to watch the fireworks with them in Lorain. So it was a pretty sweeeet day.

Sara and I also decided that we are going to be Glinda and Ephie for Halloween cause thats how we roll. And I really REALLY need to find a job, I hate being unemployed and I need to find one more class to take at LCCC. Preferably a class on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 11am. So I think I'm going to figure the rest of my schedule out tomorrow and all that good stuff.

Well my eyes burn, I hope you all had an awesome Holiday and ate lots of good food.

I love your light,
Meranda.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

My parents are going to be out of town this weekend. :D Wooo.
But anywho this is going to be a weekend of awesomeness.
Friday night we're having a bon fire at my hour.
Than the 4th me and Sara are going to go to Crocker Park since the girl from Wicked is going to be there!

Not to mention singing and dancing around my front room with Sara and our microphones.
Haha.

I dont know what else to say.
Im eating a fudge pop and listening to music.
I think thats it.
wooo.