Ohh Hey;;

Not much to say.


13 days till spring awakening.
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Yup.

So, I could sit here and complain once more about my day but after reading Hayley G Hoover's blog I wanna make a list of childrens name for my non-existent children. So here it goes:



Boys:
-Hanschen. I really like this name, I mean how often do you hear this name? Yeah thats right you dont. But than There's that possibility that he wold be made fun of. But still, I think its a kick ass name.
-Davis. Eh. Not my favorite but its semi normal.
-Aaden. I like how it looks spelt but Im not really a big fan of the name itself.
-Benjamin. Its sounds like a strong name and when I think of someone names Benjamin I picture them being this big, intuitive person. Or a theater dork. Eh.
-Moritz. HAHA. The poor kid. Moritz Steifel -chuckle chuckle-

I like more boys name but I cant think/remember them.

Girls:
-Ilse. Hands down. This is my favorite girl name ever.
-Makenna. This is in the top of my favorite girls name or the name Id use if my husband didnt like Ilse. Wait- who cares what my husband thinks, Im the oe who is giving birth.
-Makay.
-Maddison. I see an on going theme with M name.

And again Im sure there's more but Im too lazy to think of them



I dunno why this is still bold. Ohhh. Well.


Oh. There we go. This is better now. Haha. I did buy a dress for Spring Awakening today, its a blue halter top with white pen stripes in it and Im going to put a white cardigan over it and black ballet flats. Yeeeeah. Haha. Okay, I think this is it for now.


Days Till Spring Awakening: 17.

Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah

So, I have always been one of those people who has like their whole life planned out by the time they are 12 years old. And now my life is taking a shit. I mean, I have always known what I wanted to do with my life. Its simple. Go to College. Move to New York City. Be a Photographer. The End.

But now Im debating if I am even going back to college in the fall. The way I look at it theres no point, I mean the college Im at now doesnt even offer photography as a major, wtf? So why go back? It makes no sense to me. Even my mom told me to take a year off or change my major. HELLO!!!!? Thats not part of the plan that I created for myself way back when. Aglflfzlkh. If I dont go back to college Im going to work full time in hopes of earning enough money to move to New York next year. Maybe that will work out. Who. Knows.

Sometimes I wish I could go back and redo my whole life over. What would I do differently? I would have stuck with drama and choir and musical theater would have been my major. I would have stuck with playing the violin and guitar. I would have taken piano lessons. And now to me it feels like Ive wasted my life on things I love.

Is this even making sense? No. Its not.

Im just angsty. So much. And I cant even talk to any of my friends here about whats going on because I dont feel comfortable doing so.

This was going to be an awesome blog but it turned into this. Go figure. Im bitter at life. Okaythanxbaiii.

End of ranty/emo/angsty blog.


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Okay...Really?

So, when I get inspired my blog I try to find it and somehow I never can? Maybe I should bookmark my own blog so I can find it? You know what, I think I will. Because I can and thats how I roll.

Ugh.

Massive rant-age ahead. So be prepared, I warned you.

Well, first of all Im supposed to be writing my final for my Children's Literature class but hey whatever Im not in the mood for it, oh and whats that? Its due today? Oh actually today in about 12 hours? Oh well, thanks self for informing me of that. :D

So, the college I wanted to go to in Pittsburgh is a no go. There is no way Im paying $56,000 in student loans for a college that has no campus and what not and that is only for two years!!!! Why pay that much when the college Im dying to go to in NYC is only $18,000 a year, including board? Yeah, crazy. So hopefully my aunt will drive me out to NYC in July for the open house. Because I want to go that school for sure.

So this means Im going back to my shitty community college in the fall, with classes that I have NO desire to take. Ugh. Here's the undesirable classes:

TR:

Exploring The Bible- 11:00am- 12:15pm[[ehh, im iffy about this one]]
Intro To Shakespeare- 1:00pm- 2:15pm
Creative Writing- 4:00-5:15pm

MWF:

Collegiate Choir- 12:00-12:50


Anytime:

Independent Art Studies




Yeah. FAIL.




So on top of all of this I am now unemployed. Lets make a long story short here. Me and a customer got into it at work, I called a manager down. Manager blamed me and what not. I got into it with my manager and I sort of just left. Oops.

And one more thing. My cell phone isnt working. Ugh. I cant send or receive calls and text messages and now I have to wait till they send me a new phone. Word of advice, dont get the LG scoop from Alltel, Ive had so many problems with that phone.

Well, Im going to go do this Child. Lit thing so I can go to bed. I have to be up in 7 hours to go to class. But on a good note today [since it is past midnight] is my last day of classes till the fall. Im so excited.


Days Till Spring Awakening: 19

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Mmmm.

i wanted to update this and than i realized i have nothing good to talk about. hmm. im just in a grmupy mood thats all. and im doing a photo shoot wednesday at school for my final portfolio and im nervous to do it. yeah all the models are my friends but im nervous to direct people and tell them what to do. i mean im excited to do it, im just...well nervous. haha. i dont want to mess it up and i dont want people to get bored while doing this. so we shall see how it goes.

im going to see rent saturday :D yaya.

i think this is it for now. nothing good to really say.


xoxox,
meranda


"you said all you wanted was a kiss goodnight..."

And All Shall The Wonder...

So, I was going to do that blog every day in april thing but Im kind of already behind by oh you know, a few days. Blaaah. Haha. But I guess I can write a blog every once in a while ya know. So lets see, what to write about. I dropped my Sociology class today. Yeeeah, it was lame and stuff.

So. Spring Awakening. I saw it three times when it was in Cleveland and staged door all of the shows. Haha. And let me tell you, those actors are some of the nicest and awesome(est) people ever. Even though it was freezing they stayed there and talked and took pictures and what not with us. It was amazing. If you havent seen/heard spring awakening look it up on youtube. Seriously. Its one of the few plays I can relate to so much. OH! So when we saw it in Cleveland we didnt know about the stage seats, so we ended up buying stage seats for when its in Pittsburgh! Ahh, Im pumped. I think this ends my Spring Awakening fangirling. Haha.

Im going to see RENT April 18th...in Pittsburgh. Haha. So yeah. Not much else to say.

I dont do sadness, not even a little bit.

so im a creeper and i was reading melissa's blog and than i felt the urge to update mine since its been forever. hmm.

yeah.

so tomorrow, march 5th is my 19th birthday. woohoo. i mean im excited but at the same time im nervous because it means im getting older and i really dont know what im going to do or what i want to do with my life. i mean the only goal i really have for myself is moving to nyc. and thats not a really good goal. ugh. i always get so stressed around the time of my birthday. blah. blah. blah.

on to good news. im going to see spring awakening sunday with stephanie. jfljdsjsljwego. im sooo excited, im hoping that MAYBE we will get to meet the cast at the stagedoor. we shall see. we shal see.

umm i have a headache. yeah. good stuff. my blogs are so friggin random.

i think this is it for now. haha.
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